A new day has come !

Just today, I completed 25 full circles around the Sun, along with the mother Earth..
And so I grew perhaps much mature, much experienced and much wiser...At least this is what people said in their wishes..And I am now looking inside myself.. Did I?
Did I grew much mature? Did I understood the new lessons of life quite well? Did I live upto the expectations of my friends, family..n parents? Did I grew up in something which I was supposed to be? Or is that had been yet another year of existence without a goal or motive?

I look back.. and I think .. and I ponder upon it..

Why do we celebrate our Birhdays? What is so good about completing a full calendar year, which is not so good, when we complete a full calendar month or day of our life? Why everybody comes and wishes me a wonderful new year ahead, year after year, while nobody wishes me a beautiful day the very next morning? Whats so good about an year, which is not so good about 6 months, or 10 years, lets say? An year I think is neither long enough nor short enough span of time.. But anything can happen in even a fraction of a second ...So whats so special about these 365.25 days ? (write your comments plz if you can think of a nice reason :-)

Whatever might have caused our ancestors to choose this time gap to celebrate a Birthday, I am sure about at least one thing..This is certainly meant to be a day to spend with your own self ..Time to be what you are.. Because what I understand is people, in this very race of life, are running so fast that they care about everything, except their own self.. And by this own self, I did'nt mean this body..offcourse many of us take care of it very well..but what I am talking about is the real self, which is hidden inside the layers of flesh, and which is what you actually are..and without which, you are nothing but a non-recyclable un-disposable trash...Do we take good care of that? Do we know that does it really need ?

People might say I am a happy man/women.. I dont have worries in my life except a few.. I dont have tensions in my life except some very little topics. I am always happy, and enjoying myself.. I am good to people, and people are also good to me... Then why do I need to worry about this little crap called soul ? What purpose would that serve ? I appologize but such an existence is corrupted by an overdose of happiness, and engrossed by thick layers of pleasure of senses.. and thats why we often find people complaining..."You see Akash..I have always been good to others.. I have always been truthful to people.. I never did anything wrong to anyone even in my dreams...Then why God did this to me ?" Well... If you think I am being insensitive, irrational and too much critical about those people, dont worry...
Friends, I am writing about none else other than myself here..
Because just like that Alice in the wonderland, I had been living in such a fairy world, where everything seems to be almost perfect..I had everything I wanted in my life, except very few.. and that made me complacent.. I became ignorant.. It started solidifying...And then at last, nature sent a cruel blow for me ..which shattered the castle of the wonderland into mere pieces..and I felt like a gloomy asteroid crashing into the vast desert of real world..and someone came and smiled over me..

Welcome to the real world Neo !

And today I realize what was the reason...The Golden rule always says, everything changes.. To change and evolve is the nature of everything...And if you dont follow this very nature, nature will remove you from the ladder of evolution..Every shape which doesnt fit into this mould of evolution, is discarded and melted again to get casted once back..And so this gigantic furnace of evoltion keeps on blowing, emitting fumes, and producing better and better products, known as living beings..And for me, this day called B'day, which basically reminds us of our manufacturing date, and a warns about the incoming expiry, is a day to reflect upon my condition, ask myself few questions, and to gather the answer for none else other than myself.. It iss a day when I try to be what I wanna be..and thanks for the lovely people all around, who never forget to remind me about it every year..

It had been something special today.. Not just another common day of life...And as I finish this blog, Winamp started playing the beautiful song from Celine Dion..

A new day has come...

We don't know what we are looking for.. Do we ?

Many time in life I have felt a strangest pain inside my heart. A huge void, wanting to be fulfilled by something which I don’t know. I started filling it up with anything I could find. I used all my happiness... It went all in vain.. I used my tears, they couldn’t even soak it up. This undefined, unmanaged pain grew like anything till the time I slept under the shadows of meditating tree… And then it subdued for a while.. But promised to come back again… and soon…

And this phenomenon, I found in many other people.. In some or other way. Everyone suffers from this never ending vacuum coming every now and then. There are many times in everyone's life, when one seeks the true meaning of his life, his relations, his expectations and try to retrospect the way he has been living so far. This is a time, when we realize importance of some relationship, vagueness of some other ones. Some try to cover this vacuum by pretending(?) to be happy with friends all around. Some try to forget it in liquor, whims and fantasies and fool their own senses… But I am sure.. Everyone of us has got it.. Little or more…That’s why everybody seems to be searching for the happiness… Isn't it ?

While this inherent motivation to seek a source of happiness is as true as the source of the sorrow, or this vacuum, one may wonder why these things exists in our life in such a form. Why do we feel devoid of something..and entire life we spent in just a hope to find this thing back.. Why this game of loose and win and then loose again is played over and over.. Was God a fool to create this world with so much imperfection and then allow us to correct it ? Why weren't all of us equally happy, equally content and satisfied with each one's life and never try to interfere with each other, making this world a perfect heaven ?

Spiritual wisdom gives us the answer that world is imbalanced because it was supposed to evolve. Things don’t evolve when they are balanced. Its true, also in chemistry, where two radicals don’t interact if they are inert. Only active and oppositely charged radicals attract each other and try to become stable.. And more stable…until they find the perfect equilibrium. In the similar way, spiritual teaching compare the strong will power of God and Soul to meet with each other, causing all the activities of the world…

Coming back to the topic of seeking happiness once again, It seems that our goal of happiness is itself a mirage. Once we find our most sought source of happiness, we immediately start looking for the next. We never find contentment in the things which we were looking for, but still we keep looking. As one philosopher has truly said, "All that is achieved, has to be lost so that you can achieve the next thing." So we end up in an endless loop, looking for something, which we think will make us happy… Finding it.. Keeping it by side..and then again aspiring for the next… Wouldn’t it be worthy to say that we never know what we are looking for ? Or do we know it but just not yet ready to accept it, realize it?

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I am not new to blogs. I have been interested in this new philosophy of bloo...go...logy since long. In fact, where else one could find a clear reflection of one's mind towards his own selves, except in their own words..

The idea of blogging always approaches me as to write something which people want to tell others. Offcourse there are personal diaries.. There are close friends... But idea of posting something in a blog for the whole world to see is clearly intended to speak out the unspoken to all of us. Afterall, there are many things in life which are often unsaid, even after being said so many times.. People sometimes dont listen to what is being said.. In fact, one of the strage observation I have made in my daily experiences is that people listen only to what they want to listen.. Not what is being said .. Isnt it ?

I am feeling quite happy with this new dimension to speak myself out to you and all other so called Netizens of the world. I wish I can make these blogs more truthful, balanced and fair than what they are supposed to be right now. There are things I can write about pages after pages.. But there are something which I am not so comfortable to write about. Its not something which I would like to hide from others... Its simply those chapters of life, where I feel I havent learnt as much lessons as I should have done.

Looking forward to see your comments...

Welcome to my small little blog-world :-)

Cheers
Akash